It occurred to me that if you are a recent reader of my blog, you might not know how I got to a place where I’m able to be vulnerable about my grief journey. Let me take a few minutes to bring you up to date. All my life I’ve been a seeker. Even as [...]
I took this picture on a recent walk. I've always been fascinated by wrought iron gates. Gates are a common image in guided meditations, in dreams, on a walk. For me, they represent entrances into a mysterious place, my inner realm. Gates have appeared at many important times of my life. There was a [...]
One of the biggest changes I've experienced as I traveled along my grief journey is speaking up; I've reclaimed my voice. As I prepared to bring my book into the world I needed to cultivate the capacity to tell my story in the way I was being called to tell it. This was very [...]
One of the things that I often talk about is recognizing the impact that the rhythm of time has had on my grief journey. All throughout my life, I’ve always been fascinated by how time can feel different, depending on what is going on. Maybe that’s why I was so aware of the surreal [...]
Sometimes it’s good to go back to the basics. I’ve been talking about grief for a long time. I sometimes forget that not everyone is as comfortable talking about it as I am. Let’s talk for a moment about what grief is. Grief is the normal response to any loss. We experience a lot [...]
We marked the 20-year anniversary of Leah’s death earlier this month. 20 years. That fact is enough to stop me in my tracks. 20 years is a long time. That’s what I thought when I first began to mark 20-year milestones; 20 years since I graduated grade school and high school, my 20-year wedding anniversary, [...]
Is it possible to find small moments of joy when we are grieving, or when we are living through a pandemic? Each year when I enter into the portal of Leah’s death, it always takes me back to November of 2000. I remember how I felt when the police came into my office to [...]
On July 24, 2020, I became a grandmother for the first time! I’ve known this was going to happen for a while, yet I wasn’t fully prepared for the flood of emotion that arrived upon the sight of my granddaughter’s face at 3 AM on a Saturday morning. It rocked my world like few [...]
Here we are in the middle of a year that was supposed to be big. At the end of 2019 and at the beginning of this year, we all read things like this: This is going to be the year that……. (fill in our own blank) It is a year of change to be [...]
Today I’ve been thinking a lot about my journey, not only my grief journey but the entirety of my journey here on earth. While Leah’s death and my subsequent journey to find meaning and purpose in my life again is the single most profound event in my life, what I recognize is that the [...]
