As I reread this chapter, I immediately saw the roots of my intuition playing out in my life. I saw the tentative way that I mothered my children, and the fledgling awareness of my inner voice making itself known to me as I faced the so many losses. My inner knowing was strong, yet it [...]
This year as I sat with my feelings, I noticed them circling around me, waiting for their turn. It’s almost like they trust me now, so they can wait quietly until I am ready for them.
Recently we took a family vacation with our son and his family. We went to northern MN, to the boundary waters. The lake we were at was at the Canadian border. As a matter of fact, the border was in the middle of the lake. Here are some photos of our trip. I think they [...]
It’s been 8 months since we’ve moved to St. Paul from Raleigh, NC. We moved here to be closer to my son and his family. Our granddaughter Ayra was born in July of 2020, and after we met her, we knew that we wanted to be a part of her everyday life. One of the [...]
One of the things that I often talk about is recognizing the impact that the rhythm of time has had on my grief journey. All throughout my life, I’ve always been fascinated by how time can feel different, depending on what is going on. Maybe that’s why I was so aware of the surreal [...]
I took some time during the past week to do some deeper reflection on the past year and everything it brought up for me. There is no doubt that 2020 held many difficulties for all of us. What I noticed for me is the disruption of pandemic affected me on a personal energetic level. [...]
We marked the 20-year anniversary of Leah’s death earlier this month. 20 years. That fact is enough to stop me in my tracks. 20 years is a long time. That’s what I thought when I first began to mark 20-year milestones; 20 years since I graduated grade school and high school, my 20-year wedding anniversary, [...]
Is it possible to find small moments of joy when we are grieving, or when we are living through a pandemic? Each year when I enter into the portal of Leah’s death, it always takes me back to November of 2000. I remember how I felt when the police came into my office to [...]
On July 24, 2020, I became a grandmother for the first time! I’ve known this was going to happen for a while, yet I wasn’t fully prepared for the flood of emotion that arrived upon the sight of my granddaughter’s face at 3 AM on a Saturday morning. It rocked my world like few [...]
Last week I invited friends and colleagues to share some of their new holiday traditions they started, after the death of family members. I've received many great re-imagined traditions as families search for new meaning celebrating the holidays without their loved ones present. My good friend Nancy Ruffner shared the following. When I [...]
