When will this be over?
Wherever you are in you grief journey, chances are you sometimes find yourself wondering how you got here. You are on a journey you didn’t want to take; yet here you are, living in a world that is vastly different than any world you imagined for yourself.
You may be in denial, not wanting to believe how the fabric of your life has changed. You may rail against reality and want things to be the way they were before your loss.
You may bargain with your life, hoping that somehow, your life will be restored to the life that was ripped out from under you while you weren’t looking.
You may find yourself sad for no apparent reason when you hear a song, at a certain time of year, or feel a shift in the weather.
Have you heard that you must feel your feelings to move through your grief?
Does that feel impossible to you?
Do you find yourself staying home, using diversions to keep you from thinking about your loss? Do you think that if you bury your feelings under a mountain of distraction long enough they will go away and you can resume your life as it was before?
I used to think if I ate enough chocolate chip cookies that I wouldn’t have to feel the pain of losing my daughter.
Have you been through that cycle more than once or twice, each time thinking if you can only do it right THIS time that you can go back to the way your life used
Grief can be isolating.
Grief rips the fabric of your life; it breaks open your heart. It is from that broken open heart that you will discover your courage to meet your feelings with presence.
You can stop agonizing about your life and why you aren’t accomplishing what you tell yourself you will accomplish when you wake up every Monday morning.
You can heal your old emotional wounds, the past, and everything that is keeping you stuck where you are.