I would not be living the life I am now without presence, and I would not have embraced presence as a daily practice without my grief journey. There was a time when I couldn’t see how meeting my grief could help me to find meaning again in my life, let alone experience joy. [...]
You may be wondering if it is possible to find meaning, purpose, or even joy again in light of your loss. I thought the same thing. I didn’t think it was possible to live that life I was meant to live. As I began to process my grief with Samyama I began to notice [...]
As an adult, play has always been elusive. There have been many New Year’s Days when I have set an intention to play more. When I talked about one of the reasons I was drawn to work with D after we moved to Maryland, I noticed that I shared that we did many fun [...]
When I look at Arya, I see a bundle of potential. At almost 2, she understands everything, and each day has more and more words to express her view of the world. Everything she does is in service to becoming the person her soul already know she is. We try our best to encourage [...]
I mentioned in an earlier writing that I’ve heard the whispering of my longings since I was a little girl. I didn’t grow up in a space that encouraged me to listen to my own inner guidance. I don’t even know if that was a part of the greater consciousness back then. I do [...]
Ever since we knew we would be grandparents, our friends asked us what our grandparent name would be. That’s something I never really contemplated for myself. If I were to be lucky enough to be a grandma, that name would be the best possible name my grandchild could call me. Nonetheless, we played with [...]
What happens when your life is going along in a fine fashion, the way you envisioned your life going, no, the way you intentionally created it to be, and then something changes to seemingly spin you off the rails? “Life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans” This John Lennon lyric has [...]
All my life I had been fearful of endings. Endings meant I would have to change the way I did things. Endings were uncomfortable. I did everything I could to hold on to things for as long as I could. And then Leah died, and I experienced an ending that I couldn’t undo. It was [...]
Recently we took a family vacation with our son and his family. We went to northern MN, to the boundary waters. The lake we were at was at the Canadian border. As a matter of fact, the border was in the middle of the lake. Here are some photos of our trip. I think they [...]
Every year when August hits I am reminded that the holidays are right around the corner. The holiday season can be stressful on it own without the added layers of grief. Grief is a difficult emotion to describe because it is made up of so many other feelings such as sadness, anger, devastation, and so [...]
